Day 1 continued (cos blog being weird).
So it’s -179 on weekly -0.8 kg goal. That being said, I don’t think it’s such a big deal. The progress estimator only has it at like 89kg in 5 weeks (if ever day were today), but I think that’s bullshit. I want to lose enough to look good for B’s wedding. I don’t know if it’s mainly for seeing DM... actually I think I do know. Cos although I want to look good for family, looking sexy for him is a priority. Even though he’s got a girlfriend? What am I trying to prove to myself? Saw MT today. I think he and I are starting to drift apart. Too much of getting on each other’s nerves. Actually, me getting on his. My bad habits of talking and comforting. lol. Though I notice I judge myself pretty hard when I do it — almost to the point of flagellation — whereas realistically it’s just a mistake and a habit — and maybe just something I do!! — and not the end of the world. Maybe he can’t accept it because of the build up from our relationship. I don’t know. But maybe I’m ready to leave it behin...